Let's address drugs

[Marcia]

I started out as a heroin addict.For aprox.4 months.My physc.helpers are saying what I have always felt.It is very unusual to survive and I have always felt I'm alive for a reason and maybe this is it.This heroin thing started 42 years ago.I still fight addictions but I will go into that either later or another day.MAYBE I CAN HELP SOMEONE ELSE.Please take this in the spirit in which it is intended.I was 20yrs old then and I'm 62 now.I have suffered every kind of abuse there is,and have a real problem with trusting anyone.The beginning of it all was when my 'family' stole my baby.I was hooked on the first fix.I forgot my baby for a few hours.Way back then,there was no help.I injected Dristan(oil based)into my vein and the pain was not even describeable.The only thing I remember is a Doctor saying"leave her in the hall.She won't make it anyway"To this day I have no memory of how long I was in the hospital.But I survived. Drugs don't help and I learned that first hand.I later,when I was off heroin,how unusual it was to survive. A year or two later I spent time in jail for posession of heroin.I was partly guilty and after a pre-sentence report a wonderful judge sentenced me to 4 months for physc.help.It was the best thing that could have been done.This is getting too long so I'm going to stop for now.If you want to hear more(much more) post and I will continue.Just know for now drugs don't help the mental pain but if anyone wants help PLEASE let me know.It is not HOPELESS.Hugs to all

[Christopher1]

Hello

Thank you for the informative information which is really very useful to every one,,,,,,,,

[Hopeless State Of Mind]

Need Help!!

I have been snorting cocaine for a year now and I started shooting it about 7months ago on and off. I am now a daily intravenous user and I am starting to see not the consequences but the good things, I know I am in a bad place in my disease and I need help. I attended a treatment center here in Canada called Homewood Treatment Facility (Canada's best treatment facility) and within' the first day out I was using intravenously again and cannot seem to stop for the life of me and I do not know if I should just give up on myself or keep fighting. I am fighting for my life right now and hope you can help me win this terrible battle over my addiction. Thanks in advance and I hope to hear from you guys again.

[paul m]

Hello Hopeless State of Mind and Welcome. I know very little about drug addiction, but I can understand the pain and agony that you must through each day. I hope that you will find the strength to continue your fight for a better life.

Believe me when I say that I too have been to hell and back. It was not a pleasant journey and I would not wish it on anyone. But I got better and I hope that you will too. When one finally conquers their demons it feels wonderfull.

I am guessing that you have tried narcotic annoymous. I hear they are pretty good. The center for addiction and mental health(CAMH) in Toronto has some good programs. 1-416-535-8501, www.camh.net They have a drug, alcohol and mental health information line at 1-800-463-6273, 1-416-595-6111 . The Ontario gov't also maintains a website with a list of treatment options available. www.dart.on.ca or 1-800-565-8603 Take Care. paul m

[Woody]

Hi and welcome aboard Hopeless State of Mind,
Homewood does have a very good reputation. There are several people that I have spoken to that have gone there for help. My understanding is that once you complete the treatment program they just don't turn you loose, there is a follow up program. Has this change or has yours finished now?

Paul has some very good suggestion. Here are a few more that I could find that might be some help

Ontario Alcohol and Drug related Support Group Meetings (AA, NA, Al-Anon, etc.)

Goldbook Listing


Generally, how are you doing?

[AJ]

Welcome to the forums Hopeless State Of Mind. I encourage you to look into some of the resources people here have listed. If they aren't what you need, you can ask them for contact info for support that is right for you. The fact that you are reaching out and posting on these forums is a good thing. Hang in there and don't give up on yourself!