Hi. So i am just going to try to put this into words in the hope that expressing myself might help.
I love my son so much but I am so emotionally exhausted. He moved out over 6 months ago but I still live in his life! Every argument with his girlfriend, every bad day he has he is on the phone! He calls me at work, at home, at night. I have told him & explained that he can't keep doing that & he apologises but as soon as something happens its like the bipolar takes over & he forgets everything we have talked about!!
I have my Mum visiting for 2 weeks tomorrow & I am so excited to get to the airport yet here i am sat at my desk at work in tears.
I don't know how to switch off. It's like my life in on a knife edge waiting for the next drama. I'm terrified they will end up splitting up & the effect it will have on him.
I know i have no control over what happens & I know I can't fix everything but I wish I could just find a way to detatch myself from it all but still be there for him .
I haven't slept properly or eaten now for 2 days. I just feel sick to the stomach & jump every time the phone goes. I am so tired.
My Mum is here 2 weeks of the year and I don't want to miss enjoying that feeling like this. On top of which I hide a lot from her because I don't want her to worry about me cause I know she does which is also tiring.
Feeling so lost & scared right now.
I love my son so much but I am so emotionally exhausted. He moved out over 6 months ago but I still live in his life! Every argument with his girlfriend, every bad day he has he is on the phone! He calls me at work, at home, at night. I have told him & explained that he can't keep doing that & he apologises but as soon as something happens its like the bipolar takes over & he forgets everything we have talked about!!
I have my Mum visiting for 2 weeks tomorrow & I am so excited to get to the airport yet here i am sat at my desk at work in tears.
I don't know how to switch off. It's like my life in on a knife edge waiting for the next drama. I'm terrified they will end up splitting up & the effect it will have on him.
I know i have no control over what happens & I know I can't fix everything but I wish I could just find a way to detatch myself from it all but still be there for him .
I haven't slept properly or eaten now for 2 days. I just feel sick to the stomach & jump every time the phone goes. I am so tired.
My Mum is here 2 weeks of the year and I don't want to miss enjoying that feeling like this. On top of which I hide a lot from her because I don't want her to worry about me cause I know she does which is also tiring.
Feeling so lost & scared right now.
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