Well today I just feel broken & helpless. Yesterday my son tried to kill himself. It wasnt a cry for help, he didn't even tell me he had taken the pills.
It was pure Mothers instinct. I was on the phone to him & he was so broken & lost & saying things that tore my heart out whilst his (hopefully EX) girlfriend was just screaming at him in the background. I sensed something was really wrong & called 911 from 2 hrs away whilst she was just kicking off in the background. If I hadn't of called 911 my son would now be dead. He is in ICU sedated & on a breathing machine until they get everything out of his system.
The one thing I hope is that now he will be admitted & they can try & get him stabilised for his bipolar once he gets out of ICU. Also that he will finally stay away from that abusive relationship!
As a Mum I feel lost. I cant imagine my life without my boys & the fact that i nearly lost him yesterday breaks me & makes me feel so helpless. I don't know how to help him. If I hadn't of trusted my instnct it would of been too late.
Anyway i am sorry I have rambled on. I guess I am just off loading a little. I wish I could get through to people who feel that life is too hard that there is always a light at the end of the tunnell somewhere. That he is si loved & would be so missed.
Anyway I'm off to the hospital in a bit. It's gonna be a long day for me. I hope you all have a better day.
Tomorrow is another day!
It was pure Mothers instinct. I was on the phone to him & he was so broken & lost & saying things that tore my heart out whilst his (hopefully EX) girlfriend was just screaming at him in the background. I sensed something was really wrong & called 911 from 2 hrs away whilst she was just kicking off in the background. If I hadn't of called 911 my son would now be dead. He is in ICU sedated & on a breathing machine until they get everything out of his system.
The one thing I hope is that now he will be admitted & they can try & get him stabilised for his bipolar once he gets out of ICU. Also that he will finally stay away from that abusive relationship!
As a Mum I feel lost. I cant imagine my life without my boys & the fact that i nearly lost him yesterday breaks me & makes me feel so helpless. I don't know how to help him. If I hadn't of trusted my instnct it would of been too late.
Anyway i am sorry I have rambled on. I guess I am just off loading a little. I wish I could get through to people who feel that life is too hard that there is always a light at the end of the tunnell somewhere. That he is si loved & would be so missed.
Anyway I'm off to the hospital in a bit. It's gonna be a long day for me. I hope you all have a better day.
Tomorrow is another day!
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