Hello, fellow forum members,
I'm very happy to have discovered this online forum. I have had depression and anxiety since childhood, and for many years it was stabilized. I took the lemons and made lemonade out of them, got my degree and a diploma, started my own business and worked part time a few hours a day. Then my father died in 2014, I took care of mom who developed Alzheimer's while trying to get my business off the ground and working part time. When mom died in 2018, everything unraveled - financial security, housing, health and business. Due to environmental illness, particularly from wood burning smoke, there is nowhere on this earth I can live right now, and the building I live in was taken over in April by a conglomerate with three different names who are hell bent on renovations in order to increase the rent beyond the guidelines. I even went to NF to see if going back home to live was an option, but the sulfur from the mill and the wood burning from all the communities across the province put paid to that. Rather than a vacation it was a grief process of finally saying goodbye to my roots, and seeing the state of my home town, which was really sad. The biggest loss I'm facing now is my business, which took 10 years to develop but the model is not working. What really killed it was 10 months of harassment from a college who purchased my services in advance, then decided there were bureaucratic complications. The project has been put on hold while I've forked out so much money in cyber insurance and other IT expenses. But the worst part of that experience was the sense of shame and incompetency I was made to feel, and that will take much longer to recover from. Anyway, the violins are getting quite loud so I'll stop here for now. Thanks for listening.
I'm very happy to have discovered this online forum. I have had depression and anxiety since childhood, and for many years it was stabilized. I took the lemons and made lemonade out of them, got my degree and a diploma, started my own business and worked part time a few hours a day. Then my father died in 2014, I took care of mom who developed Alzheimer's while trying to get my business off the ground and working part time. When mom died in 2018, everything unraveled - financial security, housing, health and business. Due to environmental illness, particularly from wood burning smoke, there is nowhere on this earth I can live right now, and the building I live in was taken over in April by a conglomerate with three different names who are hell bent on renovations in order to increase the rent beyond the guidelines. I even went to NF to see if going back home to live was an option, but the sulfur from the mill and the wood burning from all the communities across the province put paid to that. Rather than a vacation it was a grief process of finally saying goodbye to my roots, and seeing the state of my home town, which was really sad. The biggest loss I'm facing now is my business, which took 10 years to develop but the model is not working. What really killed it was 10 months of harassment from a college who purchased my services in advance, then decided there were bureaucratic complications. The project has been put on hold while I've forked out so much money in cyber insurance and other IT expenses. But the worst part of that experience was the sense of shame and incompetency I was made to feel, and that will take much longer to recover from. Anyway, the violins are getting quite loud so I'll stop here for now. Thanks for listening.
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