Is mania really all that bad?
As I was replying to a post I started reminiscing about my last manic episode. Yes, I admit that there were a couple decisions and behaviours that weren't the most.... favourable. But I was single at the time and worry free. It would be different now that I'm in a commited relationship, wouldn't it? I also didn't crash like I have with previous episodes.
I miss and long for feeling the opposite of depressed! I was untroubled, energetic, socialable, attractive, and I accepted and felt good about who I was.
I've had many «professionals» tell me mania is absolutely terrible! The worst! But they've never experienced any of it. They don't know how it feels to be so depressed you can't get out of bed. They don't understand the struggle of coping with and fighting suicidal thoughts. They don't understand the regret of terrible and uncontrollable anger. They don't know how it feels!
I wish I could trigger mania. Just to get a break. Would it really be that bad?
As I was replying to a post I started reminiscing about my last manic episode. Yes, I admit that there were a couple decisions and behaviours that weren't the most.... favourable. But I was single at the time and worry free. It would be different now that I'm in a commited relationship, wouldn't it? I also didn't crash like I have with previous episodes.
I miss and long for feeling the opposite of depressed! I was untroubled, energetic, socialable, attractive, and I accepted and felt good about who I was.
I've had many «professionals» tell me mania is absolutely terrible! The worst! But they've never experienced any of it. They don't know how it feels to be so depressed you can't get out of bed. They don't understand the struggle of coping with and fighting suicidal thoughts. They don't understand the regret of terrible and uncontrollable anger. They don't know how it feels!
I wish I could trigger mania. Just to get a break. Would it really be that bad?
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