As I mentioned in another thread, I have a pretty bad concussion. It's starting to slowly improve, but I know from experience that symptoms will be coming and going for a while yet. I always struggle at this time of year, and head injuries mess with moods, so this hasn't been a good combo for me!
I've been dealing with severe depression and anxiety. Other than my practical exams with their do or die scoring, anxiety isn't something I have unless my moods are super unstable so I'm not good at dealing with it at all! Add to that the fact that all of my go-to people have been MIA. Don't get me wrong, I get that everyone has a life and I'd never want them to drop everything for me, but at the same time there are times I really need someone! My doc doesn't want to add more meds, which I get. Plus I can't take antidepressants since I'm type 1, and most anti-anxiety drugs would slow my brain down too much for school, so what exactly would she add even if she wanted to? The combo I'm on was working really well before the head injury, so why mess with it for something that's not even the bipolar? And the concussion's already messed up my thinking pretty badly, so let's not make it worse! My go-to for depression and anxiety is exercise for the endorphins, but between the dizziness from the concussion and the fact that I broke my kneecap in the same accident that's easier said than done. With that said I'm allowed to do whatever I feel up to, so hopefully soon I'll be able to get to the gym and start trying to fix this. But the dizziness has to go away enough for me to be safe to drive first!
Sorry for such a long post. I just really needed to vent somewhere and I'm pretty in the closet about my bipolar, so there aren't a lot of places where I can talk. Thanks for listening (reading)!
I've been dealing with severe depression and anxiety. Other than my practical exams with their do or die scoring, anxiety isn't something I have unless my moods are super unstable so I'm not good at dealing with it at all! Add to that the fact that all of my go-to people have been MIA. Don't get me wrong, I get that everyone has a life and I'd never want them to drop everything for me, but at the same time there are times I really need someone! My doc doesn't want to add more meds, which I get. Plus I can't take antidepressants since I'm type 1, and most anti-anxiety drugs would slow my brain down too much for school, so what exactly would she add even if she wanted to? The combo I'm on was working really well before the head injury, so why mess with it for something that's not even the bipolar? And the concussion's already messed up my thinking pretty badly, so let's not make it worse! My go-to for depression and anxiety is exercise for the endorphins, but between the dizziness from the concussion and the fact that I broke my kneecap in the same accident that's easier said than done. With that said I'm allowed to do whatever I feel up to, so hopefully soon I'll be able to get to the gym and start trying to fix this. But the dizziness has to go away enough for me to be safe to drive first!
Sorry for such a long post. I just really needed to vent somewhere and I'm pretty in the closet about my bipolar, so there aren't a lot of places where I can talk. Thanks for listening (reading)!
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