Need help with acute episode

[chippy]

Hi all I am taking new meds and seeing some improvement. Still a few weeks to go to see their full effect. In the meantime, I don't even know exactly what is going on with me. I am anxious and not sleeping much - pointing to elevated mood, but I also have lost interest in all activities - pointing to depressed mood. I had been powering through - taking care of my kids, tidying the house all the time. I feel tempted to get into bed as much as possible. I feel like a good deep sleep anytime of day would be helpful....if it will come. It's hard tho as I am a little scared to sleep - like I might die! It's been a tough month....doc knows all of this and I have a strong sleeping pill for bedtime. I'm trying positive self talk and I'm trying to find new thoughts so I can "forget" about this background anxiety. Any experiences to share on what felt good while waiting on meds??? I feel so lost in this area. Thank you!

[AJ]

Hi chippy and welcome to the forums. It is hard to hurry up and wait for meds to kick in. When I've been in that position, I do find focusing on self care and being kind to myself has helped a lot. I at least feel like I'm doing something besides waiting.

[chippy]

Thanks AJ! I will try to be kind to myself. I get down when I feel really anxious again after a 'good' period. It seems like anxiety is going to show up daily for now. I can tell it's getting better. I do take long naps and usually 1 lorazepam to get through the day. I have to keep reminding myself that's it's temporary. I won't always be like this ....I will be able to work again and watch my kids for a full day. It's just such a 180 from what I could do a few months ago.

[AJ]

Hi chippy. I'm glad things are getting better. I understand the 180. I used to be able to juggle 10 balls in the air and multi task without a second thought, not anymore. I am back to being able to do whatever tasks need to be done, even though some may be one at a time now.