Ive been reading a lot lately about the rise is suicides amonst males 40-55. Apperantly mankond had a "happiness arc" that has the happiest part of our lifes at the start as kids and at the end as elders, but that part in the middle stinks. So as men realize that their dreams arent going to happen and they are merely worker bees in hive world the idea of ending it all starts to appeal.
as i read this article i started to connect with a lot of what was said. I love my kids, but as they grow more and more indepenant, im needed less and less. My job is JUST a job. I focused to much on a paycheque that i skipped the passion for work. My social calender is nonexsistant. Even "Date Night" has become "you stay with the kids, im going out" i leave the house to get coffee or to work, thats it.
i understand the over 40 crowd. I get why suicides are on the rise. I have kids and wpuld never hurt them like that. But i still fantasize and dream. It used to be about baseball. Now the end.
i can't wait until old age. I want to be happy again.
as i read this article i started to connect with a lot of what was said. I love my kids, but as they grow more and more indepenant, im needed less and less. My job is JUST a job. I focused to much on a paycheque that i skipped the passion for work. My social calender is nonexsistant. Even "Date Night" has become "you stay with the kids, im going out" i leave the house to get coffee or to work, thats it.
i understand the over 40 crowd. I get why suicides are on the rise. I have kids and wpuld never hurt them like that. But i still fantasize and dream. It used to be about baseball. Now the end.
i can't wait until old age. I want to be happy again.
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