It all began when I was 17 years old, I'm currently 26. 9 years of anxiety that turned into depression and a lot of other mixed emotions. I had my first panic attack during my last year of high school, I had no idea what was going on, felt like I was about to die. Later that night the panic attack came back and I was rushed to the hospital because I felt like I was experiencing a heart attack. Over the years of having more and more panic attacks, I stopped going outside, which eventually turned me into a agoraphobic. I can't leave my house without someone being with me and I have to rely on my friend (who I currently live with) to take me to the store to get groceries.
I'm currently trying to get disability but got denied 4-5 times for god knows what reason....Apparently they think I can still work, which if I can't leave the house kinda makes it difficult? I really wish the people who tell me to "get over it and go outside" would break their legs so I could tell them "Just walk on your legs, it's not difficult - I can do it!"
I have a support worker from Canadian Mental Health Association who's been helping me get out and do exposure therapy, so I got that going for me I suppose. Been honestly getting to the point where I just honestly want to kill myself. I probably won't tho.
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I'm currently trying to get disability but got denied 4-5 times for god knows what reason....Apparently they think I can still work, which if I can't leave the house kinda makes it difficult? I really wish the people who tell me to "get over it and go outside" would break their legs so I could tell them "Just walk on your legs, it's not difficult - I can do it!"
I have a support worker from Canadian Mental Health Association who's been helping me get out and do exposure therapy, so I got that going for me I suppose. Been honestly getting to the point where I just honestly want to kill myself. I probably won't tho.
/Rant end
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