I'm on here at the moment because I don't know where to go with what I'm feeling. It might be a panic attack; for sure I feel jittery and nervous and want to cry but can't. It will probably soon pass but this is quite upsetting. I'm trying to calm down my breathing, which helps somewhat. Also, writing this post may bring a better perspective.
I think it's from stuff building up. I'm having trouble finding an outlet for it. There has been a run of sickness and death in my personal circle for the last few years (not to mention the world at large). I confide in a few close friends, but at the same time don't want to spiral down by dwelling too much on the negative. I think an appointment with a counselor may be in order if this doesn't let up. I was doing really well for a long time, including the whole pandemic isolation stuff, but we all have limits. This last couple of weeks I've been exposed to major triggers that have pressed my anxiety and/or depression buttons. Yep, they are still working fine, no need to test them further
.... I've taken a little time here to do a bit more deep breathing and a body stretch or two... will continue with that, because it helps the footbaIl in my gut to reduce, and hopefully dissolve given a bit of time. I also just did a little reading from a couple of books I keep handy. Here is a quote from one: "Speak to another of that which lies in the heart, and be not ashamed of your words; for as you speak from your heart you are sounding notes of truth, wisdom, and power." I like that - a message that sometimes it's good to share about what's going on inside of me.
It has been good to write this, I feel some relief, and calm enough to begin carring on with my day - starting with a shower and getting dressed. If you're reading this, thank you so much for being there, it means a lot
I think it's from stuff building up. I'm having trouble finding an outlet for it. There has been a run of sickness and death in my personal circle for the last few years (not to mention the world at large). I confide in a few close friends, but at the same time don't want to spiral down by dwelling too much on the negative. I think an appointment with a counselor may be in order if this doesn't let up. I was doing really well for a long time, including the whole pandemic isolation stuff, but we all have limits. This last couple of weeks I've been exposed to major triggers that have pressed my anxiety and/or depression buttons. Yep, they are still working fine, no need to test them further
.... I've taken a little time here to do a bit more deep breathing and a body stretch or two... will continue with that, because it helps the footbaIl in my gut to reduce, and hopefully dissolve given a bit of time. I also just did a little reading from a couple of books I keep handy. Here is a quote from one: "Speak to another of that which lies in the heart, and be not ashamed of your words; for as you speak from your heart you are sounding notes of truth, wisdom, and power." I like that - a message that sometimes it's good to share about what's going on inside of me.
It has been good to write this, I feel some relief, and calm enough to begin carring on with my day - starting with a shower and getting dressed. If you're reading this, thank you so much for being there, it means a lot
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