Hi all,
Well... I think fall has caught up with me. I did pretty well making half way through October... but now I've been bitten by the Autumn-Grumpy bug.
I eat too much. I sleep too much. I complain too much.
Ahhgggg.
I have forgiven myself for a lot of this behavior. It should only be a temporary state of mind. (As long as I don't buy into it being who I am instead of just something that's happening to me.)
I’ve let a lot of dark thoughts fill my mind though.
Time to crack open my journal and start training my thoughts again. (Why do they turn so negative when left alone for even a few moments??)
I’m trying to convince myself spending hours a day on my mind is worth the effort… I resent having to cut back on other activities in order to do this. I want to accomplish something in my life other than simply keeping myself alive.
Ahhhhgggg….
Also, I wish I could suffer in seclusion instead of dragging down the people closest to me. It must be tough living with a person whose biggest accomplishment some days is simply getting out of bed. I’m an able-bodied invalid.
Step 1 : reaching out to people who understand.
Done.
Step 2 : Find my journal and read though some of my entries from last year around this time.
On my way.
Thanks for reading,
Kaight
Well... I think fall has caught up with me. I did pretty well making half way through October... but now I've been bitten by the Autumn-Grumpy bug.
I eat too much. I sleep too much. I complain too much.
Ahhgggg.
I have forgiven myself for a lot of this behavior. It should only be a temporary state of mind. (As long as I don't buy into it being who I am instead of just something that's happening to me.)
I’ve let a lot of dark thoughts fill my mind though.
Time to crack open my journal and start training my thoughts again. (Why do they turn so negative when left alone for even a few moments??)
I’m trying to convince myself spending hours a day on my mind is worth the effort… I resent having to cut back on other activities in order to do this. I want to accomplish something in my life other than simply keeping myself alive.
Ahhhhgggg….
Also, I wish I could suffer in seclusion instead of dragging down the people closest to me. It must be tough living with a person whose biggest accomplishment some days is simply getting out of bed. I’m an able-bodied invalid.
Step 1 : reaching out to people who understand.
Done.
Step 2 : Find my journal and read though some of my entries from last year around this time.
On my way.
Thanks for reading,
Kaight
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