Hi all, I’m new to these forums and I thought it might be a good place to find direct information and resources to help me to be better emotionally equipped to deal with my situation in life.
I am in my 30’s and I have social anxiety, PTSD, and I deal with loneliness and depression on a daily basis. I also deal with the difficulty of being the only deaf & hard of hearing person in a small ‘old school’ town of 4,000 people. On top of that, I also have an older brother with an undiagnosed mild form of Asperger’s syndrome with aggressive one-sided, negative cynical meltdowns – I also secretly suspect my mother has it as well, or maybe she fits more with having OCD; either-way, I suspect it must run in my family. It makes sense. Though I lucked out on just being born deaf and mentally strong so I don’t know if my deafness happened during pregnancy or when I was sick with a virus as a baby – maybe life in its twisted way, being deaf was a blessing in disguise as it saved me from having what my brother has, an invisible social barrier. I also have my own, but it can be seen publicly so I don’t know which is worse since I have a hearing device on the side of my head.
I’d been dealing with this living situation since 2009, and it just hasn’t gotten any easier so, my negative feelings have been getting stronger and I’m tempted to give up and give up as each day passes and I guess I’m realizing I’m at a point I could use some help or advices somehow. It’s a large problem I can’t tackle all at once, so I just know I have to deal with bettering my own life first. Or maybe I just need some support through this time until I can finally move out when I get a paying job in a bigger city, just go for a new life. It’s just tough… I’ve been living one day at a time, sometimes… even living 5 minutes at a time.
I am in my 30’s and I have social anxiety, PTSD, and I deal with loneliness and depression on a daily basis. I also deal with the difficulty of being the only deaf & hard of hearing person in a small ‘old school’ town of 4,000 people. On top of that, I also have an older brother with an undiagnosed mild form of Asperger’s syndrome with aggressive one-sided, negative cynical meltdowns – I also secretly suspect my mother has it as well, or maybe she fits more with having OCD; either-way, I suspect it must run in my family. It makes sense. Though I lucked out on just being born deaf and mentally strong so I don’t know if my deafness happened during pregnancy or when I was sick with a virus as a baby – maybe life in its twisted way, being deaf was a blessing in disguise as it saved me from having what my brother has, an invisible social barrier. I also have my own, but it can be seen publicly so I don’t know which is worse since I have a hearing device on the side of my head.
I’d been dealing with this living situation since 2009, and it just hasn’t gotten any easier so, my negative feelings have been getting stronger and I’m tempted to give up and give up as each day passes and I guess I’m realizing I’m at a point I could use some help or advices somehow. It’s a large problem I can’t tackle all at once, so I just know I have to deal with bettering my own life first. Or maybe I just need some support through this time until I can finally move out when I get a paying job in a bigger city, just go for a new life. It’s just tough… I’ve been living one day at a time, sometimes… even living 5 minutes at a time.
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