Hi Folks,
This is my very first post on here as I've just registered my account.
I am currently writing this from a psychiatric hospital where I've been admitted since last week, mostly due to a planned suicide thoughts, intense depression and in a crisis state from my previous behaviours all coming to light... (had to move from one end of the country to another so i could get support from family).
The early diagnosis I've received is Bipolar (likely II but not confirmed). A little about me:
-I am a high achiever, 32 year old woman(masters degree, high performing athlete, volunteer work, travel, etc) and have often had the facade of just that ' she's incredible/perfect/has everything going for her/she's my hero, etc are all things people used to use to describe me.
-Despite all of that, I have spent several years in the midst of various depressions... not being able to move/leave the couch for days, calling in sick because I cant get out of bed/achy,
-this past year I have become more reclusive, avoiding social situations, finding them exhausting, lying to friends about why i cant go out with them
-I've also experienced times when I have been incredibly high in energy, feeling like I can burst out of my own skin, planned huge ideas/events late at night, wrote my Masters thesis in one sitting in 4 days, told people I could be Prime Minister of Canada if I wanted to, been described by friends in these situations as being "child like" and "super giddy", yet I've also been highly irritable and uncontrollably angry in these states.
-off and on for years I have stolen from loved ones/friends. usually just small amounts of cash but it has escalated this year into writing cheques from a loved one's account.
My psychiatrist is fairly sure that, as of now, she knows me to be living with Bipolar yet is also exploring whether this is more of an impulsive control disorder and/or kleptomania.
My question to all of you is whether any of this might sound familiar with the stealing or if you have any insights into the matter? I am new to this community so any suggestions or comments are welcome.
Thank you so much to all of you.
This is my very first post on here as I've just registered my account.
I am currently writing this from a psychiatric hospital where I've been admitted since last week, mostly due to a planned suicide thoughts, intense depression and in a crisis state from my previous behaviours all coming to light... (had to move from one end of the country to another so i could get support from family).
The early diagnosis I've received is Bipolar (likely II but not confirmed). A little about me:
-I am a high achiever, 32 year old woman(masters degree, high performing athlete, volunteer work, travel, etc) and have often had the facade of just that ' she's incredible/perfect/has everything going for her/she's my hero, etc are all things people used to use to describe me.
-Despite all of that, I have spent several years in the midst of various depressions... not being able to move/leave the couch for days, calling in sick because I cant get out of bed/achy,
-this past year I have become more reclusive, avoiding social situations, finding them exhausting, lying to friends about why i cant go out with them
-I've also experienced times when I have been incredibly high in energy, feeling like I can burst out of my own skin, planned huge ideas/events late at night, wrote my Masters thesis in one sitting in 4 days, told people I could be Prime Minister of Canada if I wanted to, been described by friends in these situations as being "child like" and "super giddy", yet I've also been highly irritable and uncontrollably angry in these states.
-off and on for years I have stolen from loved ones/friends. usually just small amounts of cash but it has escalated this year into writing cheques from a loved one's account.
My psychiatrist is fairly sure that, as of now, she knows me to be living with Bipolar yet is also exploring whether this is more of an impulsive control disorder and/or kleptomania.
My question to all of you is whether any of this might sound familiar with the stealing or if you have any insights into the matter? I am new to this community so any suggestions or comments are welcome.
Thank you so much to all of you.
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