Hello everyone,
I need some help understanding what I'm living-- and just need to talk to someone I guess. So here is my short story: first depression maybe when I was 23, then it passes.... At 24, was my next big depression, follow up by quick manic state cause by an anti-depressant. Then, other depression, follow up by a manic or hippomanic state, again cause by an anti-depressant. Of course, all these were created in part because of dfficulties in my life...
From then on, and the last 10 years, mostly no depression or manic state, just felt tired, anxious, uncomfortable, difficulty to concentrate, brain fog... Psychotherapy, tweaking by my psychiatrists of the pills I had to take, sports, yoga, didn't change that. I was able to finish my doctoral degree and find a job as a professor. Don't know how I did that right now.
Now, I guess I'm living another depression-- that seems the most appropriate term to define what I'm living; I have been on a leave of absence since the beginning of the semester. But here is my problem: it just seems to me that I'm just lliving an exercabation of the symptoms I already have, worse than usual, but kind of similar.
So, that is the point, I don't feel I fit the bipolar patterns, it seems more like I had a small depression for the last 10 years-- which is kind of discouraging if that is my "normal" state. Is there anyone who heard of something like this? A normal consequence of pills? Regarding this point, I'm now taking more pills beaause of my current state.
I know that is a weird a post, but I will be thankful of any feedback regarding my story.
Paix
p.s. is there a way to get an email when someone respond to a post?
I need some help understanding what I'm living-- and just need to talk to someone I guess. So here is my short story: first depression maybe when I was 23, then it passes.... At 24, was my next big depression, follow up by quick manic state cause by an anti-depressant. Then, other depression, follow up by a manic or hippomanic state, again cause by an anti-depressant. Of course, all these were created in part because of dfficulties in my life...
From then on, and the last 10 years, mostly no depression or manic state, just felt tired, anxious, uncomfortable, difficulty to concentrate, brain fog... Psychotherapy, tweaking by my psychiatrists of the pills I had to take, sports, yoga, didn't change that. I was able to finish my doctoral degree and find a job as a professor. Don't know how I did that right now.
Now, I guess I'm living another depression-- that seems the most appropriate term to define what I'm living; I have been on a leave of absence since the beginning of the semester. But here is my problem: it just seems to me that I'm just lliving an exercabation of the symptoms I already have, worse than usual, but kind of similar.
So, that is the point, I don't feel I fit the bipolar patterns, it seems more like I had a small depression for the last 10 years-- which is kind of discouraging if that is my "normal" state. Is there anyone who heard of something like this? A normal consequence of pills? Regarding this point, I'm now taking more pills beaause of my current state.
I know that is a weird a post, but I will be thankful of any feedback regarding my story.
Paix
p.s. is there a way to get an email when someone respond to a post?
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