Ok I want to start with my manic episode and then get your opinion on whether I’m bipolar. If you want the main thing I want is your opinion whether I’m bipolar so you can skip the manic episode if you want.
So the reason I became manic could also be thought to just be a drug induced phycosis. I was drinking that night and almost to the point of black out/memory loss, then I did a bunch of weed gummies and fell asleep. I had a willlld dream and when I woke up I couldn’t remember if it was a dream or a conversation I had when I was drinking. First off I’m a drug dealer, I hope this is a safe forum. I dreamt that I was talking to my dealer, who had previously said he was going to send people to home invade me and kill me and rape my girlfriend. So that had been on my mind for months. So in my dream that I thought was a drunk night I texted him and somehow pissed him off. He said he was going to get cartel (he was Mexican) after me and that they were in Canada. In the dream it was more like a giant phone screen I was reading his texts. He then sent me a link and I went to it and it was child pornography. He said the cops were going to come tomorow and arrest me for it, and then somehow I was going to be sent to the mental hospital, where I would know somebody there that was going to kill me. All of that except the child pornography came true, I swear to god lol. He said the only way I could prevent it was to start following the code all dealers followed, and I apparently didn’t because my dealer didn’t tell me because he was an addict and just wanted my money. The code I tailed that I didn’t ever use any drugs including ciggerettes, and that I had to go green cuz apparently the world was ending because dealers over consumed and the planet has been running out of resources. He told me covid was a democrat made up thing to try to blind ppl from the world ending, and that all construction, ems, cops, etc were on the look out for ppl that knew this. He said the construction workers building the let around my city were actually burying bodies and that the world was overpopulated and there was actually like 15-20 ppl in ea house and they were all addicted to drugs. He also said I was not to be able to sleep anymore because all dealers live to serve cartel and had to make every run no matter what. He told me Donald trump had taken all the republicans to Mars and it was only dealers and democrats left. He said dealers built an underground city to survive and all the dems were going to die. He told me Democrats naturally will get pissed at the sight of me when I wake and that I had to act natural or they would kill me. He told me I can combat that by looking and surrounding myself with certain colours like blue and yellow, and to stay away from colours like red and pink. He told me that tomorow there would be a helicopter ride over my house, and that it was working with a thing called the eye in the sky that Democrats created to try to rid the world of the drugs that destroyed it, he said it could scan into my house and find them and alert authority’s by working with helicopters. He said that to remind me my neighbour who was also a dealer was going to flash a blue flag 5 mins before the helicopter was coming to remind me. He also told me that the actual reason he was outside in his lawn for a couple weeks wasn’t because he was airatting his lawn, but he was actually slowly hiding his drugs in the dirt from the eye in the sky coming. He told me that I can’t join him in the underground cuz I didn’t follow the rules but that Donald trump was willing to have a conversation with me and then tell me to act out my own application to become an American on Mars. I was supposed to write all the states down from memory the next day and if I got a certain amount he was going to tell me where a port key is(yes Harry Potter) to transport me to Mars. He told me that my whole neighbour hood (it’s nicknamed m block because there’s so much crime and dealers) was actually full 100% of dealers, and that now they were all going to try to kill me because I’m not dealing anymore. He told me the black water spots on the roof of my bathroom were actually blood droplets because my upstairs neighbour was actually a hit man that kilted his wife and put her in a bath tub. She always came outside and visited with me but I hadn’t seen her in a couple months (she was actually just old and sick that’s why). He told me all the dealers over consumed and the Democrats didn’t. He told me that my friend was actually a hit man and the garden he was always working on was actually where he hid the bodies himself, and that he got killed himself because he refused to take the hit and kill me because I didn’t follow the rules. He told me cats were a dealers pets and that’s why my neighbour had cats to warn off the cops from catching him. He told me dogs were the guards for the gates of hell like Cerberus or something and that they all tried to fight dealers. He told me my dog was fine with me because I still had a job so was kind of normal, but the reason he barked so much at my guests is because they were drug users.( we have a big problem with the dog he will bark just because someone gets close to me). He told me my girlfriends mother was going to drive me and her into a wall and kill us both because she actually followed the rules and was set to go to the underground that all she had to do was kill me, and she was going to put me in the front seat before she did it. He told me I had one chance to come to underground and that was to bring my gf down to river valley and meet him somewhere down there, but he said something about a construction worker finding us down there and killing my gf or something. I woke up and was going crazy. Popped on google, first story was Justin Trudeau accidentally let cartel members into Canada. I started washing dishes in shallow cold water, taking the clothes out my hamper and rehanging the not so dirty ones. Unplugged appliances even wifi. I was only allowed to have like 4 things plugged in he said. Stopped smoking ciggerettes and weed that I relied on to make me sleep. Frantically called my friend he said was dead who did not answer for the entire 5 days I was manic. I went outside and everyone started to look evil. I had a convo with someone he said was a dealer and sure enough she offered me a big red (replubican/dealer colour) lawn mower instead of my little stick thing I used (I had a small lawn). She then informed me she had Hulu plus, Netflix Amazon prime, and basically all the media channels, (over consuming) then the guy next to her wearing blue (Democrat colour)said he was just happy with his radio. Took my gf outside in a field cuz I was scared somebody was listening and told her everything. Went to the river valley with her but couldn’t remember exactly what was going to happen so turned away. Went to grocery store and bought all blue groceries 400 bucks worth because it was that drive home that she was going to kill me, so tried to surround myself with blue/green things. Started shutting my eyes at red lights and looking at grass and water and staying away from the bad colours. He told me he was going to send a hummer to my house at 5am and flash it’s lights at me. I’m still not sure that vehicle with its lights at 5am was true or not. I’m not sure of a lot of things. He told me that on day 4 I was to take the dog somewhere to kill it because it was against me, then try to take my gf to my dads to catch the port key. So on day 4 I tried to convince her to come with me but she wouldn’t. She chased after me in the streets and I eventually was able to push her away from the car. I asked him in my head “should I go fast or normal” which he said fast so I was driving dangerously, I eventually crashed, then tried to steal the car I crashed into. He wouldn’t let me so I crossed the intersection to a car at the opposite red light and tried to steal that one. Then he told me plans have changed I don’t have a car I’m not going to my dads anymore to catch port key I just need to run like 100 yards and catch a glimpse of the sun behind a building. So ran and ran and caught a glimpse of the sun finally when I was being arrested. Donald told me in the dream and taught me that I was to make orafami in prison as well as a bunch of other stuff to get accepted to Mars. So sure enough even though it was a ****ing dream I knew how to make or again and started making perfect doves out of toilet paper. Then I started doing the Cadillac ranch on one foot because he told me to. Got switch to another jail which sure enough had red walls, which seemed to really bother me, and a ****ed up sink so I couldn’t drink water. And I hadn’t drank anything for hours. He then told me the only way to a send to Mars now was to kill myself so I harmed myself badly which required stitches. They took me to mental hospital and sure enough when I got there I knew one of the nurses, so was scared the whole time that she would kill me in my sleep.
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