People in our Lives

[Strugglesinmyhead]

Can people we surround ourselves with keep us down or is it just the depression talking and me pushing away?
When I get out with a couple girlfriends I feel a lift in my mood, they seem to bring me out of my funk. Its like I'm wearing a different mask. They don't really know about my depression. I try to hide it when I'm around people. As soon as I get home or just doing my usual daily activities my mood gets really low again. At home I feel really lonely, sad, disconnected alot of the times even though I have people in my home and people phoning me.
I live with a chronic pain illness, fatigue and mental health. I think staying at home so much is depressing me more, along with so much more I'm sure. I feel like I've lost my identity in this world.
I need to get out more somehow. I miss routine and adult interaction.

[AJ]

I find that being out an about shifts me into a less self reflection inner kind of mood. t’s a welcome shift.

I’m a social creature by nature and I also love the great outdoors. Sometimes I can even empty my mind of worries. Just for a while I am.

[Strugglesinmyhead]

I know what you mean AJ. I find it helpful getting out doing things out of the ordinary or just being outdoors away from my 4 walls. I push myself to go out sometimes even if its just to get a coffee.
I use to be happy go lucky all the time before this illness, and loved being social. I still am when I'm in a good state of mind. I just wish there was more good days than bad days lately. I'm hopeful though. This time of the year is always worse for me.

[AJ]

This is a tough time of year for me too Strugglesinmymind. Being hopeful and knowing that things will be better, keeps me putting one foot in front of another.