I'm sure this is not uncommon. Most of us have made the acquaintance of the black dogs and we likely know of others in the struggle. Every now and then, we lose one. I just did.
So, I don't know if I should be angry. This should not have happened, yet it did. In hindsight, it was pretty plain that this was coming and I am not blaming myself that I could, or should have done more. All I feel is that I know where my friend has been and I wish him peace. I know he had very little of that lately. Sadness or anger does not seem to play a part for me. Yes, there is a sense of loss, but I also recognize how helpless I may be.
There is a component of distance here. At one time, there were daily interactions as we shared a workplace, but we all move on and several provinces and a number of years separate our lives. It was pretty easy to confirm his passing, but there is no mention of his illness. Thus the elephant in the room. I don't expect there is a solution, but we remain unable to discuss this. I'd like to tell my friend that this was not the way to peace, yet I know I would not have succeeded. It is my hope that maybe even one person may see this and reconsider.
Time to go read Desiderata again.
So, I don't know if I should be angry. This should not have happened, yet it did. In hindsight, it was pretty plain that this was coming and I am not blaming myself that I could, or should have done more. All I feel is that I know where my friend has been and I wish him peace. I know he had very little of that lately. Sadness or anger does not seem to play a part for me. Yes, there is a sense of loss, but I also recognize how helpless I may be.
There is a component of distance here. At one time, there were daily interactions as we shared a workplace, but we all move on and several provinces and a number of years separate our lives. It was pretty easy to confirm his passing, but there is no mention of his illness. Thus the elephant in the room. I don't expect there is a solution, but we remain unable to discuss this. I'd like to tell my friend that this was not the way to peace, yet I know I would not have succeeded. It is my hope that maybe even one person may see this and reconsider.
Time to go read Desiderata again.
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