For me, and i can only speak for me personally the clarity of thought that comes with hypomania is great and I accommplish huge amounts at work and home while I am hypomanic BUT the end result is the hypomania can quickly spiral out of control (mania) and my mind turns against me, my thoughts becomes delusional.
The thought starts out sane and rational, just like any other thought I would have but it escalates out of control, i can't let it go, my mind is racing, the ideas are coming to fast, my mind can't process them, I try to write them down so i don't forget them, all of the ideas seem good, I am solving all my problems, atleast I think i am. What I am really thinking and writing is making no sense at all, it is only making sense to my sick mind.
I can not possibly describe the horror of a major episode of bipolar in one post but for me it feels like I lost my mind completely, my mind betrayed me, I have no control over my mind, my mind and me are separate entities, I feel alone and so scared, scared like a child would be, i do not feel safe, and these feelings last for months after the episode...
I also have a daughter, she is 11, I worry she might have issues with mood disorders because I have Bipolar
The thought starts out sane and rational, just like any other thought I would have but it escalates out of control, i can't let it go, my mind is racing, the ideas are coming to fast, my mind can't process them, I try to write them down so i don't forget them, all of the ideas seem good, I am solving all my problems, atleast I think i am. What I am really thinking and writing is making no sense at all, it is only making sense to my sick mind.
I can not possibly describe the horror of a major episode of bipolar in one post but for me it feels like I lost my mind completely, my mind betrayed me, I have no control over my mind, my mind and me are separate entities, I feel alone and so scared, scared like a child would be, i do not feel safe, and these feelings last for months after the episode...
I also have a daughter, she is 11, I worry she might have issues with mood disorders because I have Bipolar
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