I've just logged in my account here after being away for almost a year .. and I'm not sure if I can finish writing this essay to the end .. I'm having a hard time struggling with a depressive episode for more than 2 weeks .. actually it might be even longer than that .. I can't remember .. but I'm a kind of person who learned a lot about myself during the past few years .. and I always try to say to myself : Don't worry .. it will soon pass .. it's just your bipolar .. it's just your brain .. it's not your fault ..
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It's taking a bit longer this time but I hate to be so negative.. I always make sure that I'm aware of the fact that I've been through much worse times .. and better times too ..
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2018 was a good year for me in general .. maybe the best since 2014 .. the three years in between were full of disappointment , frustration , rage & loneliness .. 2017 was the worst I had since 2009 ..
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I've been on ODSP since I got my approval in December 2017 .. and I have to admit that it was the number one factor in making my 2018 a good year ..
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I'm writing this because I need to boost my morale .. and only managing to complete writing this essay made me feel s bit better ..
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Now the question is : why am I feeling down ? .. why a new year ( 2019 ) would start with such a bad mood ? .. for almost a month ..
I'm not sure .. honestly .. I don't think I can tell .. not yet at least ..
If I manage to find an answer I'll try to write it down ..
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Enjoy the rest of your weekend, falks ..
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It's taking a bit longer this time but I hate to be so negative.. I always make sure that I'm aware of the fact that I've been through much worse times .. and better times too ..
..
2018 was a good year for me in general .. maybe the best since 2014 .. the three years in between were full of disappointment , frustration , rage & loneliness .. 2017 was the worst I had since 2009 ..
..
I've been on ODSP since I got my approval in December 2017 .. and I have to admit that it was the number one factor in making my 2018 a good year ..
..
I'm writing this because I need to boost my morale .. and only managing to complete writing this essay made me feel s bit better ..
..
Now the question is : why am I feeling down ? .. why a new year ( 2019 ) would start with such a bad mood ? .. for almost a month ..
I'm not sure .. honestly .. I don't think I can tell .. not yet at least ..
If I manage to find an answer I'll try to write it down ..
..
Enjoy the rest of your weekend, falks ..
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