Everything is so complicated. I feel like I have been shoved down by life so many times that I just can't get back up anymore.
I am 39.
Mother and father divorced since I was 3. My alcoholic mother abandoned me when I was 14. My father never liked me for some reason, so he has never really been in my life. I have been on my own since I was 15 years old.
So called friends always took advantage of me. Boyfriends one after another abused me. And I let them, because I had no one to turn to. No where to go. Not one family member or true friend to help me.
I was pregnant at 19. Had my boy. Moved in with my son's father a year later. I was desperate to make this little family work. I wanted to be a good mom. I wanted my son's father to be a good dad. I wanted to change my life around and really make it a good life.
My son's father just abused me and cheated every chance he could get. I left, but he took my son. I went back to him, because I loved my son so much I couldn't be away from him.
We bought a house and started over. I tried my hardest again. I wanted the family I never had. I made it 11 years. I couldn't handle the abuse anymore. It got to the point that my son's father was teaching and allowing my son to abuse me as well. My depression was getting too dark and I had to leave.
It killed to have to leave my son with his dad, but that is where he wanted to be. My son stopped talking to me because he believed all of the lies his dad told him. I feel like I failed my son.
I fell into a deep depression. I missed my boy horribly. I had social anxiety so bad that it was hard for me to go out into public or talk to anyone. I found a counsellor and groups on depression and anxiety. I worked so hard to make myself better. I knew I would never be cured, but I had a handle on things now.
I re-connected with a male school friend. We were married just last year. I was so happy things were FINALLY working out for me. I was still working on bettering myself and now maybe I could build the family I always wanted again. Things were looking good.
I should know by now that as soon as I get up and dust myself off, I will be kicked in the teeth again. Dec 2016...diagnosed with breast cancer. And there it is. I was only working part time, so no benefits for me. CPP denied my claim. I can't work because of chemo and other treatment I have to do.
My husband is great! I love him so much... but now I feel like a burden to him. I had plans of getting a better job this year and for us to move to a better place. Having children is not in the cards anymore because of how long my treatment will be and what it will do to me. Another thing ripped from me.
His small family is not supportive. Actually, it seems they like to cause problems whenever possible. I have literally no family at all and no friends. It's just my husband and I.
I feel so beat down. My depression and anxiety has come back full force. I don't know where to go from here. How do I get back up?
My husband and I are getting along well, but life has been throwing us more problems then we can solve.
How do I find peace and happiness in our lives? I feel like I can never be happy again. I don't want to drag my husband down with me.
I am trying to be happy with what little we have, but it's so hard when things keep getting taken from me.
I am 39.
Mother and father divorced since I was 3. My alcoholic mother abandoned me when I was 14. My father never liked me for some reason, so he has never really been in my life. I have been on my own since I was 15 years old.
So called friends always took advantage of me. Boyfriends one after another abused me. And I let them, because I had no one to turn to. No where to go. Not one family member or true friend to help me.
I was pregnant at 19. Had my boy. Moved in with my son's father a year later. I was desperate to make this little family work. I wanted to be a good mom. I wanted my son's father to be a good dad. I wanted to change my life around and really make it a good life.
My son's father just abused me and cheated every chance he could get. I left, but he took my son. I went back to him, because I loved my son so much I couldn't be away from him.
We bought a house and started over. I tried my hardest again. I wanted the family I never had. I made it 11 years. I couldn't handle the abuse anymore. It got to the point that my son's father was teaching and allowing my son to abuse me as well. My depression was getting too dark and I had to leave.
It killed to have to leave my son with his dad, but that is where he wanted to be. My son stopped talking to me because he believed all of the lies his dad told him. I feel like I failed my son.
I fell into a deep depression. I missed my boy horribly. I had social anxiety so bad that it was hard for me to go out into public or talk to anyone. I found a counsellor and groups on depression and anxiety. I worked so hard to make myself better. I knew I would never be cured, but I had a handle on things now.
I re-connected with a male school friend. We were married just last year. I was so happy things were FINALLY working out for me. I was still working on bettering myself and now maybe I could build the family I always wanted again. Things were looking good.
I should know by now that as soon as I get up and dust myself off, I will be kicked in the teeth again. Dec 2016...diagnosed with breast cancer. And there it is. I was only working part time, so no benefits for me. CPP denied my claim. I can't work because of chemo and other treatment I have to do.
My husband is great! I love him so much... but now I feel like a burden to him. I had plans of getting a better job this year and for us to move to a better place. Having children is not in the cards anymore because of how long my treatment will be and what it will do to me. Another thing ripped from me.
His small family is not supportive. Actually, it seems they like to cause problems whenever possible. I have literally no family at all and no friends. It's just my husband and I.
I feel so beat down. My depression and anxiety has come back full force. I don't know where to go from here. How do I get back up?
My husband and I are getting along well, but life has been throwing us more problems then we can solve.
How do I find peace and happiness in our lives? I feel like I can never be happy again. I don't want to drag my husband down with me.
I am trying to be happy with what little we have, but it's so hard when things keep getting taken from me.
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