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    Hi it's been awhile

    Hi, for those that have read my previous pathetic life story, yeah it keeps getting worse. I just don't understand the whys and ppl just ghosting or 'the family' wow knowing but now the proof that i wasn't exaggerating that I really wasn't loved by my parents or siblings from day one. I did everything I was supposed to do no matter what I was a single mom never went out during and even after the marriage. I was always there her jumping interacting and loved her completely, no matter what my mood and spine and the rest of the deteriorating bones. all her friends were always over they would say they preferred it. I ignored even the CAS worker the ex sicked on me (long other story), teachers, her court appointed lawyer my gut. The worker said to me with huge concerned for me saying that this kid in grade five. "you have a serious manipulating daughter' I had kept bringing her to various therapist but that didn't work out. My parents really bonded with her to the point of spending hundreds of dollars just on clothes, giving her money everyday, buying her apple laptops yes plural. I'm not dumb as I could see the box in the recycling . her answer was grandma said not to tell you. Giving her 10k when she was 18 No wonder I couldn't get her to do chores, respect all of a sudden. When she was 9 or 10 she would say 'why don't they (parents) ever hug or tell you they love you? they always do with me" then the 'you have to listen to ur parents when I stopped bying non essentials. Yeah that made me depression get better. There was money laundering via their bookkeeper, having me sign over my house right after brain surgery. there's more. I can't lie worth shit and have boxes of proof of receipts proving so many illegal CRA filings etc. This and more could be right up there with a Clancey (not sure of spelling of author). I always have third party proof. I've gone out of my way helping I thought were friends. It's not my mental illness that created all this. I was great at wearing the mask of 'im fine' I'm not any use to anyone I really am totally without support of any kind. I'm unlovable. this time I can't seem to pick up the pieces. I've used all the tools and more in the 'toolbox'. I had to be able to tell someone and this group over the many years have helped me not to feel so invisible and actually hear the words i'm saying. Thank you everyone who has read this.

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    Hi Purgatory. I have no wise words of wisdom, only a virtual hug or two. Mostly I just want you to know you've been listened to and I care.
    AJ

    Humans punish themselves endlessly
    for not being what they believe they should be.
    -Don Miguel Ruiz-

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      #3
      Hello Purgatory. I also have no great words of wisdom. I did read your post and I can believe how tough life must be. I will also send some virtual hugs.Take Care. paul m
      "Alone we can do so little;
      Together we can do so much"
      Helen Keller

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        #4
        Virtual hugs here too Purgatory.

        May I ask, how did you come to choose Purgatory for your online name? I find this intriguing...

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