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    Losing hope

    Hi everyone!

    This is my first time posting on one of these forums, but I'm running out of options. I suffer from major depressive disorder. I've been taking anti depressants since June 2019 and it looks like I may need to change my meds again. I was on and off sick leave last year due to my depression and for a good portion of this year, I've been so proud of how my recovery had been going. These past 2 months or so, have made me feel like I'm going back to square one and I'm desperate to get help but it's so hard to get help for mental illnesses. I recently reached out to this mental health organization hoping they could help me with getting cognitive behaviour therapy which they claim on their website that they offer for people with mild to severe depression.

    Yesterday, I had a call with one of their doctor's where he wanted to follow up on my assessment to see the extent of my depression. He denied helping me and said that my depression is too severe that they cannot help me and I have to keep looking else where. I started crying and I was so surprised to see there are organizations out there that have the heart to refuse to help someone who is literally crying and praying for someone to help them. I've reached out to so many mental health organizations to see how they can help me and I haven't had any success.

    Why is it so hard to get help. It shouldn't be this hard and I honestly don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I regret being honest with the doctor because if I pretended to not have such a severe case of depression, I probably would have been accepted to get help.

    I'm also limited to looking for services that are free or on the more lower end for cost. I cannot afford anything so expensive.

    Are there any services that anyone has found to be beneficial or would recommend? I'm honestly willing to get any kind of help because I'm tired of fighting this alone.

    #2
    Hello Lena and welcome to the forum. I am sorry that you are having such a tough time. The MDAO (https://www.mooddisorders.ca/) has some good literature on depression as well as virtual support groups that may help. The MDSC(https://mdsc.ca/) also has some good on line literature. CMHA may also be able to help. You just google CMHA or if you are in Toronto you can access their main page at https://toronto.cmha.ca/contact-us/#.VMpPInJ7jUY and a finding help page at https://toronto.cmha.ca/mental-health-2/find-help/ and https://toronto.cmha.ca/find-help/ . You can also call the Gerstein Centre: (416) 929-5200 . According to the website they provide crisis intervention to adults, living in the City of Toronto,

    I don't know if your doctor was a GP or a psychiatrist. If the doctor was not a psychiatrist your doctor should refer you to one. If it was a psychiatrist then ask your GP for a referral to a different one. Take Care. paul m
    "Alone we can do so little;
    Together we can do so much"
    Helen Keller

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      #3
      Hi Lena and welcome to the forum. I'm sorry that you have had such a hard time getting the help you need. Paul has made some good suggestions. Keep us posted on how you're doing. As hard as it is, especially when you don't feel well, knock on as many doors as you have to, to get the help you need, you are worth the effort! (And yes, it shouldn't be so hard to get help when we need it!).
      AJ

      Humans punish themselves endlessly
      for not being what they believe they should be.
      -Don Miguel Ruiz-

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        #4
        Hi Lena welcome to the forum. I am sorry you are having a difficult time. I also struggle with major depression disorder. I ended up going to local hospital and asking for help I ended up seeing a psychiatrist every day in the hospital and got the help I needed. If you are really struggling or having thoughts of hurting yourself please go the hospital. There is nothing wrong with going to hospital. I have been in hospital 3 times.

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          #5
          Dear Lena,

          Do not lose hope, keep telling yourself depression is treatable, which it is. Go to a hospital and find a psychiatrist there or find one in your city. There are some somewhere. If you have a friend or family member tell them straight out how you feel and they can call or take you to help.

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            #6
            Lena. It helps to know you are not alone. This is also my first time posting. I also have major depression and anxiety. I have been depressed on and off for 8 years now and have been on and off antidepressants. This bout of depression over the past two years has been the worst I've experienced. At one point I sunk so far into the depths of despair I was looking for ways to make myself disappear. The pain was so bad. I have a really good gp who carefully monitors my meds and has sent me to a psychiatrist at the hospital so it's free. My doc has a strong background in psychiatry so he deals with my depression as the illness it is and seriously. You need to find a good gp who understands how debilitating depression can be and who sends you to the right specialists for councilling and support. Hang in there and keep fighting for the help you need...things can get better. Also analyze your situation...is there some life situation that has triggered your depression? A psychiatrist will help you get to the heart of the matter. I hope this helps. I joined this forum so I wouldn't feel so alone in my struggles. God bless you and keep you.

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              #7
              Hello and welcome HopeFloats. Thx for your comments. Take Care. paul m
              "Alone we can do so little;
              Together we can do so much"
              Helen Keller

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                #8
                Welcome to the forum HopeFloats.
                AJ

                Humans punish themselves endlessly
                for not being what they believe they should be.
                -Don Miguel Ruiz-

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                  #9
                  Originally posted by Lena View Post
                  Hi everyone!
                  Yesterday, I had a call with one of their doctor's where he wanted to follow up on my assessment to see the extent of my depression. He denied helping me and said that my depression is too severe that they cannot help me and I have to keep looking else where. I started crying and I was so surprised to see there are organizations out there that have the heart to refuse to help someone who is literally crying and praying for someone to help them. I've reached out to so many mental health organizations to see how they can help me and I haven't had any success.

                  Why is it so hard to get help. It shouldn't be this hard and I honestly don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I regret being honest with the doctor because if I pretended to not have such a severe case of depression, I probably would have been accepted to get help.

                  I'm also limited to looking for services that are free or on the more lower end for cost. I cannot afford anything so expensive.

                  Are there any services that anyone has found to be beneficial or would recommend? I'm honestly willing to get any kind of help because I'm tired of fighting this alone.
                  I would recommend talking to a charity that works with depression like Samaritans. Therapy is effective but very expensive, i think you need to address the triggers to your depression. If medication isnt working it is because medication is only half the job. The other half is doing what you need to do to lighten the load of depression. Triggers, feelings, past experiences, etc. If the doctor isnt helping you, then try another doctor, but remember medication will not solve the issues you face, it will only help you cope with things for the time being. Ask yourself why you are depressed and then work on solving and gaining closure on these issues. Pastors can help you and they are free, although most certainly they are going to ask you to let them pray for you.

                  If you are fighting this alone, then communicate your issues to family and friends and gain a bigger support system. Talk to your family you can definitely trust them. My family hate me, but i can talk to them if i have issues. Good luck.

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