It's hard for me to put myself first .. and it's hard for me to distinguish the difference between ( putting one's self first ) and ( being selfish ) ..
Selfish people make me feel disgusted .. and that makes it even harder and harder for me to put myself first .. because putting myself first make me hate myself and feel guilty ..
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And I can't tolerate seeing people being selfish .. and most probably I won't forgive them .. I might even be very rude to them and punish them for that .. or at least stay away from them for years .. maybe forever ..
I know that's a bit extreme and deep inside I know it's not healthy and it makes me feel more depressed ..
Selfish people make me feel disgusted .. and that makes it even harder and harder for me to put myself first .. because putting myself first make me hate myself and feel guilty ..
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And I can't tolerate seeing people being selfish .. and most probably I won't forgive them .. I might even be very rude to them and punish them for that .. or at least stay away from them for years .. maybe forever ..
I know that's a bit extreme and deep inside I know it's not healthy and it makes me feel more depressed ..
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