I never thought my life would be THIS sad today
I'll give a rundown of my life.
I'm 41 right now.
As a child I was bullied a lot in elementary schools (Yes I've went to a few to try to escape bullies but I keep getting new ones).
That bullying stopped at Grade 10.
I did finish high school, earned a diploma and jumped into college per advice from family. I eventually finished college and never got a good job.
I also had a hard time finding work until age 22 when a new grocery store opened, in which I worked permanent part time. In 2020, I left that job due to issues surrounding COVID-19 between my employer and I.
So now I'm jobless, used up nearly all my funds and still live with family.
I feel depressed because I'm trying hard to connect with real people but my problem is (and I've seen this at my former job) that all the people I want to connect with either seem so busy or attached to their phones 24/7.
This past year I tried running speed dating events and could only run one which wasn't enough. When I look online, I see competitors stating they are selling tickets fast despite some having bad reviews.
I just feel no one wants to help me LIVE anymore. I even asked the few friends I have for help and they don't want to. People have told me to start over at the bottom again (work wise) but that would depress me all the more because I'll feel like I'm working with people alot younger than me who would be stuck on their phones or I probably wouldn't get a job because I don't have a new phone.
I mean I just feel depressed for not being rich enough to own the latest techology to do basic tasks and for not being able to make any friends (or even build a family of my own) at all.
I thought when the media was talking about basic income, it gave me a sense of hope because it would allow people to enjoy life instead of working every hour and that would be the kick I need to build a relationship I think. But with how that program is being delay (if it will ever happen), I don't know where to turn.
Is there any way I can get help without having to go to a doctor or being administered special pills? because I live with someone who is on a disability and he takes special pills daily and he too does not really have any friends and he is older than me.
I mean I'm trying to be a productive member of society but when I can't even get enough people to run ONE speed dating event in Toronto, it makes me wonder if Earth is the wrong planet for me to live on....
I'm gonna stop rambling and cover myself up and pray there's light at the end of the tunnel.
I'll give a rundown of my life.
I'm 41 right now.
As a child I was bullied a lot in elementary schools (Yes I've went to a few to try to escape bullies but I keep getting new ones).
That bullying stopped at Grade 10.
I did finish high school, earned a diploma and jumped into college per advice from family. I eventually finished college and never got a good job.
I also had a hard time finding work until age 22 when a new grocery store opened, in which I worked permanent part time. In 2020, I left that job due to issues surrounding COVID-19 between my employer and I.
So now I'm jobless, used up nearly all my funds and still live with family.
I feel depressed because I'm trying hard to connect with real people but my problem is (and I've seen this at my former job) that all the people I want to connect with either seem so busy or attached to their phones 24/7.
This past year I tried running speed dating events and could only run one which wasn't enough. When I look online, I see competitors stating they are selling tickets fast despite some having bad reviews.
I just feel no one wants to help me LIVE anymore. I even asked the few friends I have for help and they don't want to. People have told me to start over at the bottom again (work wise) but that would depress me all the more because I'll feel like I'm working with people alot younger than me who would be stuck on their phones or I probably wouldn't get a job because I don't have a new phone.
I mean I just feel depressed for not being rich enough to own the latest techology to do basic tasks and for not being able to make any friends (or even build a family of my own) at all.
I thought when the media was talking about basic income, it gave me a sense of hope because it would allow people to enjoy life instead of working every hour and that would be the kick I need to build a relationship I think. But with how that program is being delay (if it will ever happen), I don't know where to turn.
Is there any way I can get help without having to go to a doctor or being administered special pills? because I live with someone who is on a disability and he takes special pills daily and he too does not really have any friends and he is older than me.
I mean I'm trying to be a productive member of society but when I can't even get enough people to run ONE speed dating event in Toronto, it makes me wonder if Earth is the wrong planet for me to live on....
I'm gonna stop rambling and cover myself up and pray there's light at the end of the tunnel.
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