I am new to this, and this is my first post. I thought it was most appropriate to put something on the SAD topic or page since I was diagnosed with this in January. It was just from telling the doctor that I was not sleeping well, and talking for maybe 10 min. at the most about my past. I have had some anxiety issues mainly with my teaching work, and from all the changes in my life. My mom has recently been put into a home for Alzheimer's, and that has caused a lot of stress for me. I was very close to her, and I was overseas with my girlfriend, who I was getting close with when I decided to come home. We were thinking of marriage. Well, I now feel after putting mom in a home, that I should be closeby, and that woman will not come this way.
So this has all created stress in my life. I have a father who is not involved much at all, and my siblings and I are doing most everything like selling my mother's home now. My father is an alcoholic actually, and is quite mean to talk to. I go to church, and have really been reaching out that way spiritually, but still, I feel so alone a lot. I also struggle with kind of being isolated, or more too myself. At work in the staff room, there are some loud people who just can not seem to stop talking. I just avoid them. I sit with a few quiet people. I seem to just want quiet. I also have been quite irritable. Around one friend's wife, I got very angry with her the other day. I only see them once every two weeks or so, but she is often grumpy or disrespectful to me.
Well, I just want to say what is going on. I thought it may be SAD, but now with sunnier weather, I still struggle with low moods and being very tired. I know exercise is good, and I used to be quite active. Now, I just walk mainly. Having been overseas last year, I am not so connected with others in what to do here in this suburbia. I work every morning and some night shifts, but when I have this 6 hour break in between shifts, I have to conserve energy to survive the teaching a night class, or I get grumpy and say something mean in class and that makes me feel very bad. I have thought of changing my job, but not sure what else I can do.
I just want others to share with, so I am trying this out.
Thanks for reading.
So this has all created stress in my life. I have a father who is not involved much at all, and my siblings and I are doing most everything like selling my mother's home now. My father is an alcoholic actually, and is quite mean to talk to. I go to church, and have really been reaching out that way spiritually, but still, I feel so alone a lot. I also struggle with kind of being isolated, or more too myself. At work in the staff room, there are some loud people who just can not seem to stop talking. I just avoid them. I sit with a few quiet people. I seem to just want quiet. I also have been quite irritable. Around one friend's wife, I got very angry with her the other day. I only see them once every two weeks or so, but she is often grumpy or disrespectful to me.
Well, I just want to say what is going on. I thought it may be SAD, but now with sunnier weather, I still struggle with low moods and being very tired. I know exercise is good, and I used to be quite active. Now, I just walk mainly. Having been overseas last year, I am not so connected with others in what to do here in this suburbia. I work every morning and some night shifts, but when I have this 6 hour break in between shifts, I have to conserve energy to survive the teaching a night class, or I get grumpy and say something mean in class and that makes me feel very bad. I have thought of changing my job, but not sure what else I can do.
I just want others to share with, so I am trying this out.
Thanks for reading.
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